Year 11 is the most awful thing ever. If that's possible. I'll reminisce on my past two weeks. In order of preference (e.g. most hated to least hated):
- English Advanced: GROAN GROAN GROAN
- English Extension: ditto
- Maths 3unit: I like Maths, just the fact that I have it every day scares me. That means I got to lug around my 2kg textbook.
- Geography: I have a 2kg textbook for that as well but got dear little Phallus (ahem, sorry Phyllis) to share the jubilation with
- Biology: ditto, except we have fun pracs where we count popcorn etc. Got the twins there to entertain me so that's okay.
- Chemistry: yay, only 10 people in the class. (ditto with the textbook)
Didn't think Year 11 would be so hard. Thought I could deal with it. Sigh. I barely see the girls either, only see them at recess and lunch, although see Kimb and Clar in Eng Adv and Eng Ext.
Highlight of the fortnight: Getting a cosy little pad under the trees. While all the other girls provided "moral support", the stronger ones and I helped lift the tables and chairs to provide a cosy little area. My guns hurt now. Ouch.
Also, last week, my Saturday was fairly sweet. Got to go Warwick Farm aka Cho Tet with the twins, Lily and Lucy. Played this hectic game "have you met Lucy" cept Lucy n Lily obviously didn't want to play since they ran off whenever I started off the game with some lucky boy. Still, super fun just complaining about how awful the place was and how our feet hurt so much and also about how much dust we were inhaling and how it was hazardous for our health. I think the nem nuong thing was most hazardous to THEIR health, I wasn't gonna touch the stuff. LOL. Well by the end of the night, think we had permanent asbestos and filthy clothing. Sigh, I think I'm growing old, Cho tet no longer lights the same flame in me as it did once before. Still, it was fun, got to see I-an again although I think he's mad at me once again. I feel bad though, me being the HEY I WANT THE TOYOTA YARIS and I WANT MY LIXI and all. I can't blame him. Feel awful, wish he would talk to me again. I was just on my... "natural high". Can you blame me? Feel really, really awful. REALLY awful. Even though guilt only sank in the say after.
And then A* called me up just as I had left. Sad, ain't it. Missed out the opp to see him, even though in a way I came because A* said they would come. And that was my reason for going, because I was in my nostalgic weird mood and pissed at the world. Still I'm happy that I went because I had stacks of fun with the twins, just acting like we all too good for the TA asians all drifting about there. LOL.  
Another depressing and ohsotragic day is coming up. Gosh, I hate VDAY. HURL HURL HURL. Bah, on a sweeter note, hope JR is treating you well KATHERINE!!. OH yeah these girls from my chem tutor go on about this chick who is like literally working herself to death. Pressure must be really tough, although I can't really relate. Hang in there Kattles, you're stronger than that.
MWAH/

How come holidays went by so fast? It was only yesterday that the holidays begun. SO time to reflect I suppose:
- Some loser came rearing his ugly head in again. Reject. And now I think I still have feelings for him again. Just little feelings. Nothing important. And I told myself I go for "personality" now. And then something happened.

- Another someone appeared. Someone who was caring when other loser wasn't, someone with charm, charisma, and liked my eccentric, weird personality. I'll call him SUBMAN for the time being. And now it's gone further than I wanted it too. And it's gone too far for me to stop it. I'm sorry. But it can't go any further, and I'll never be able to tell you that because of my inability to say no.

- I started tutoring which was possibly the most tiring experience ever. Take last Saturday for instance. I know others go through it, but it was a first for me. I woke up early for the morning class, and then endured 1.5 hours of it, which was okay. But then I realised I had to come back at 2.15pm to endure TWO ENTIRE HOURS of more tutoring. And it was very hard, my tutor feels sorry for me. He pities me. And I bet he regrets saying that I was bright last week. SO I suppose I ain't bright anymore. That meant I missed out of my arvo nap which I so desperately need to have.

I really don't want holidays to end. Because once they end, Year 11 starts and I'm not ready for that. I'm not ready to start waking up at 7am, and packing my own healthy lunch again. I saw this awesome recipe in Sunday Life, and if any of my school buds wants to eat some sandwich sushi I will be happy to make it for ya as long as you make me something healthy once in a while!!
I been happy with these holidays. it's given me a lot of time to reflect on the year, and with Tet fast approaching I get another chance to reflect back on 2005.
I wish I was just a lil kid again so that I wouldn't have to endure the painful tutoring process.
Love you all. 
Postscript: Welcome back WENDIIIEE!! I'm coming over on Thursday/Friday, so if any of the crew wants to come along, just come and crash! I'll bring my prized stash.

Went to Kimbles pad today. Tres exciting, Vivvles, Kat, Kimbutterfly, and we fried our brains out watching movies where thinking isn't required.
In order of preference (well, i didn't like any of them):
Sleepover: Ultimate chick flick even though I watched it already. Despite it being an awful movie dripping with corniness, it was the best movie out of the rest.
Memoirs of a Geisha: I didnt like the movie when I watched it the first time, and it was pretty crap the second time around.
Roll Bounce: Quite possibly the worst movie ever. I don't want to think about it anymore because of how awful it was having to endure watching it. Still, awfully sweet of Kimb to fast forward to the "best bits" thus making it end quicker. It was only slightly better than 100 days with Mr. Arrogant because it was in ENGLISH.
100 Days with Mr. Arrogant: I'm sure this movie would have been really good if I had been able to see the subtitles. So I endured about 2 hours of non stop korean where I couldn't understand a single word lol. That's why it was the worst movie of today. It looked fairly interesting, although OTT corniness, and the similarities to My Sassy Girl was uncanny.
Anyway, I FINALLY got the subway that I been craving since like FOREVER. Except some botches decided to eat the Chicken and Bacon Ranch Sub that I specifically ordered LOL. Same people who decided to gorge on the cookies and leave me the remnants of about two cookies. So I got the Roast Chicken half, which supposedly had jalapenos in it, and nearly died from the spicyness. Anyway, thanks for the cookies and the subs, REACTIVE MAN a.k.a Ian by day. Service was excellent, and you're the bomb to deliver so early in the morning. I'm sure my friends love ya too.
Also learnt how to drive Manual, which was definitely a highlight of the day (after frying brains with the girls of course). Anyway, I got the hang of it pretty quickly I think. Yeah, well Reactive Man was kinda cringing in his seat a bit seeing as there's always a slight possibility I might total his car, but hey, I thought I was pretty good for a first timer. So what if I nearly hit the gutter and stalled the car for about 5 times out of the 6 times I tried. Anyway I completed my goal, which was to drive for about a metre. Well, I did before stalling that is.
I am going to be THE ultimate manual driver, I can SO tell. Had a lot of fun today just "chilling out wit THA mates". (Such an Asian ganster activity, not really used to it lol).
I'm not really craving subway anymore after the disastrous spicy pickle episode. We gotta arrange another of those "watch movies while bloated on too much food until you cant stand it anymore" outings.
And Wendles, Clarice, missed ya there =). You better be there next time so we can get a better stash of movies to watch. Next time, I'll know to bring more of the movies I'm so good at being a movie pirate and all. I don't want a repeat of this time, watching ROLL BOUNCE and trashy Korean movies.
Anyway, sales are on. Isn't that exciting? VG (City MYER) = 50% off everything. Excellent. 
So Constipated criminal, if you're reading this, remember that you have 2 weeks to repay your debt. Making it approximately $266.66 you would have had to have made from working etc, i don't really care.
BTW, Kimbles, I left my bottle of water at your house which was like ohsotragic, as I was becoming so attached to it. So yeah, chuck it out. Kinda tough for it to be without me, so you're better off ending its life. Thanks bub.
MWARZZZHHHHIIIES.

I think I cooped up these emotions for long enough. I'm going to rant on about how much I detest you and exactly why, and then I'll stop and forget about you forever. And then I'll finally have you out of my system. Comprendez?
Reasons why I detest you:

• You seem to get a kick out of lying to me. I hate the fact that you consistently attempt to hurt me, and when you succeed, you go back and do it all over again.
• Why did you do it? I can't get over why you would want to hurt me over and over again. You USED me. YOU F**** USED ME. And look, so much for new years resolution not to swear. BECAUSE GUESS WHAT! I'm back to swearing. And don't even tell me that you're all "good" now, because you're not. If you were a sane human being, you wouldn't get a F**** kick out of messing around with girls heads.
• You came in '04 playing me, and then you came back. And now it's 06. I don't want anything to do with you. All I know if that whenever you were near me, I forgot everything that was so important to me. And please please, I'm not begging you anymore. I am gonna stand firm and tell you that I don't want anything to do with you anymore. You've brung me nothing but confusion and pain.
• You're some desperate psycho who's got emotional issues. You want to know how it feels to get hurt mate? Because trust me, I will show you. I find you disgusting. I'm lucky I didn't get sucked in anymore. You know, you're like some leech who sucks the blood out of other decent human beings. If I saw you in the street, I would have to control myself to not spit on you.
• Mate, and I thought I had emotional issues? You got some to deal with. You were right, we were never friends in the first place. But you were wrong when you said you been trying to get me the whole time. Were you only trying to get me to prove some point to your stubborn head? That you could lure me in for the 100000th time and then release me back into the sea?
• I finally realise your desperation for me to say yes. Your pick up lines are awful. And I thought I was special. Did you know that? Did you realise that you made me think that for once I was liked more for my "inner beauty" rather than some material image? Well, I was WRONG. You thought I was plain crazy, retarded, lunatic, politically unstable whatever. 
• Someone warned me too. That I was being used, that you're a loser, a sheep, a follower. I should have listened, because they were right all along. I can't believe that I liked you. I still can't.
• You piss me off with your "who me?" attitude, acting all nonchalant and carefree when really, you ain't like that at all. And you know what? My life may be uneventful, but I wouldn't swap anything to have your lifestyle. I wouldn't swap a damn thing. I have great family, great friends, and although I get stressed and bored, I stil find ways to entertain myself. I don't need an extravagant lifestyle.
• Something even worse, you have a GIRLFRIEND. The poor girl. It kinda makes me laugh, that some girl would even trust some poofter like you. I know I'll never compare to those big hootered girls, but hey, I have a personality. I DONT CARE IF I'm UGLY compared to every other girl. I don't care, because what I learnt is that I would prefer inner beauty anyday over someone with a great smile and cocky arrogant attitude.
• And lastly, how dare you use me and think that maybe if I went out with you then maybe your debt would be called off. It's $400. Hope you can pay it back, cos I'd hate to be in your position having to deal with the others

I'm done. BUt lastly, just to make me feel better and hurt you (as pinprick as it may be) and give myself a bit of entertainment. (Some words courtesy of Jereee)
Constipated Criminal in the Cradle is Careering becoming a
Hypocritical Hairy Homosexual
Indeedy he is!!  (Yes indeedy!)
Have a wonderful life, and I'm gonna have the most excellent year of all. And thankfully, you won't be there to stick your head in again, asking me out when you so obviously have another girlfriend.
But hey, you want to be friends forever? *Shakes hand*
Hey, let's be BFF (BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!) --> Oh the irony of it all.
CACKLE CACKLE.
Oh btw, happy 17th birthday Jereee . Hope 17 is everything you always hoped it would be. And thanks for helping wit the words. Giggggggggle.

If by any chance, you have read my previous entry which has now vanished into oblivion, then forget it. Forget everything that I've pleaded etc.
I'm not going to deal with this anymore. It's just one vicious cycle. So please, I'll plead with you now. Just STOP. Stop whatever you think you're doing. And realise that I don't want to play these silly games with you anymore.  
You came back and totally turned me upside down. And now it's my turn. Just please don't. Perhaps one day I can look back on this event, because although I'm assuming, it's a pretty cowardly thing to do.It is pretty damn pathetic. Those desperate measures? All for one reason, and don't tell me it's because you "loved' me so much.
So there you go. My resounding last words for you.
Sincerely,
Jennifer.

With the new year approaching and all, I thought it would be convenient to list all the highlights and lowlights of this year.
Highlights & lowlights in chronological order :

Highlights

Lowlights

Cho Tet. Meeting Xin. Hooking up with Xin. Getting to know Xin. Starting the new year with Xin.    Being all pumped for the new school year, covering my books all prettily. Being the proud owner of tons of Pony shirts. Tam & Leila's Wedding Getting closer to all my buddies Reemergence of some loser who just had to pop his head back in. Getting massive guns from my pushups. Wanna see me flex? Becoming a water machine without having to urinate every 5 minutes "Borrowing" a $15 Coles Myer Gift voucher from some fobby guy who is only interested in checking me out. Survived not going to tutor for an entire year. With the new year approaching, I'm going to one.

Losing Xin Starting school on a high and then ending it pretty flatly on a low mainly because i felt like I failed Reemergence of some loser who made my heart beat faster and made me forget everything that was important to me Losing Wendles Losing Kat I've been going to Vietnamese school for 4 years now. In year 7, I got a D. This year, I got a B. My little friend who isn't really a friend in year7 got an A. Does wonders for your self esteem.  Getting so bored in Vietnamese and resorting to doing sudoku, reading DOLLY/GF, and listening to music. Not getting an Award (for Viet) and having to endure Tien that little robot get one Eating as much as I want in order to get tanky and take my misery out on the world and only worked to speed my metabolic rate some more. Getting frustrated when things didn't go my way, the way i wanted them to go.

So, to end, it's not really that comprehensive a list, but I don't really want to divulge much. Some of the stuff that's happened is a bit too personal to share. But I want to start this year on a high. As for love, who needs it? I don't. But if it comes knocking from the right person that I'm thinking of at the moment, then who am I to look them in the eye to reject them?
To the rest of you,
Seasons Greetings and HAPPY NEW YEAR.
Party safely, drink responsibly etc etc.

Tha wun and only Coytrin, my Katherine, my Katz, my Kibbles.

Today was a very emotional day for us. When one of the gang breaks away, understandably it's hard. Especially when I've known you for 4 years. Albeit compared to Kimberly, I may not have gotten to know you for that long. However, I do regret not having the next two years getting to know you even more and sharing our jubilations and adventures. You were one of the most "interesting" friends I've ever had, and myself and others loved you for it. In all seriousness, Sefton ain't gonna be the same place without you. There's not gonna be anyone to tease or to haggle for freebies anymore. Keep the samples atmosphere alive man. It's no fun when I'm getting all these free samples and there's no one to share that with. Who am I going to go to? Kimb and Viv might think its cool, but Clarice? Dude, she already thinks I'm cheap. We already lost Wendles to PAL, but now you? To Ruse turds?
I love you to bits. and I'm going to miss you like crazy next year. We got to keep the sisterhood alive babes. Even though it may be your last day at Sefton, it's just going to be the start of our new adventures. 
So i'll end by telling you all those things that I never told you, which I wish I had when I knew you were going.
> Thanks for understanding me. Understanding was enough for me.
> Sorry I never cried until your last day, at the last possible moment. It's not that I didn't care, it's just that I couldn't accept the fact that you were leaving. And it only sunk in at that moment.
> Thanks for being my whizzing buddy until you got your bladder under control, while I just tended to completely OD on water everyday.
> Our whole group just compliments each other. You're gonna leave a blank hole where you used to be. Not a day has gone by where we havent cracked ourselves up into tears. Just remember us all as those who could do that and not give a damn whether any other turds around us looked at us weirdly.
> You taught me not to be embarassed. We walked so freely doing what we do best, walking hunched, jiving, tickling each other senseless, and twitching like we damn well please. Now I can walk high with Kimb and teach her what you taught me.
I hope you liked our scrapbook, and our Russian Princess movie. To be honest, that movie really didn't have much relevance to History but Katherine, that movie epitomises what our whole groups friendship is all about. I'm really grateful that I had that opportunity to have fun with you those last few days as a group.
Lastly, please please please let's not lose touch. That's the worst thing that could happen, but thankfully, I would never let that happen. The next few years are the best to come, and although we're at different schools, you live right down the road from Sefton. We can crack each other up like old times, and chat about how great the old times used to be.
Remember me as Stacy in BSC, and as Nancy Papadakis in Little Sister series. You, of course are Karen, the main star, the ultimate Little Sister.  
Hey, let's be thankful we didn't end on a bad note Okay? And we both know we'll leep in touch, and if worse comes to worse, maybe we'll have the occasional chrissy card. So let's wipe those tears away, because we both combined are the BOMB. And we will "blow" everyone away.
Q: What has four legs and flies?
A: Jen & Kat smelling awful but still feeling like a million bucks cos they're together.

S2 ya forever even though you have a gas prob.
KISS KISS from your beloved Jennyls, Jenius, Jennifer.

Making out PARTY.